• I am NOT my Social Anxiety

    Today, this is what social anxiety looked like for me. It looked like helping lead people in worship at my church for four services. But, there are certainly layers of that that I wanted to mention as well, because it’s important. Sometimes it looked like the anxiety ridden women sitting in the green room not knowing what to say to people or how to interact with them. Sometimes it looked like wanting to be part of conversations so bad but not having the ability to just walk up and take a chance. Sometimes it looked like just sitting by yourself for a while because you don’t know what else to do. Honestly, social anxiety is one of the most frustrating things that I personally deal with. Why? Because, contrary to what people may think at times, I really enjoy socializing. My problem is that my anxiety wears me out. One simple conversation can take a lot out of me, especially when I am around people I don’t know very well. Group settings or parties can be terrible for me sometimes. Even when they’re full of great people, I often times have a negative experience because of my anxiety. Conversations are just hard for me. Sometimes it’s even a struggle with people I already know and care about. Suuuuuper frustrating. Here’s the thing, though. Yes, I have social anxiety. Yes, it does suck. But I am not letting that define me. I am not social anxiety. I’m a child of God and I declare FREEDOM over my life in this area. God didn’t create me to let social anxiety get the best of me. Sometimes it just takes a step here and a step there in the right direction. I’ve come a long way. I remember a time in fifth grade…